Green tunnel, delirium and recovery

It´s my third day in the green tunnel and I'm exhausted, I see a big wall of entangeled vegetation in front of me. I have no clock and mist has been hiding sun since I've started walking but birds tell me the night will fall soon, so I decide to set up my tent.

I can see many dishes, the best dishes I ever ate during my life, the bread from my mum, the rice from my stepmother, vegetables, meat, fishes, olive oil, meditteranean dishes... I have a kaleidoscopic vision of it. All is for me! people bring it to my table. I've been told I'm close to a village called "El Negro", yes! I already listen to their dogs... Hold on, why is it called like that? El Negro... nero... noir! (black) STOP!!!

I wake up in my tent full of humidity and I feel terribly lonely. A pouring rain is falling, there is lightnings every 5 seconds, water is running under the tent... inside also. I have to eat more, I'm rationing my food because I'm not sure I'll have enough. This trek was supposed to take only three days but I'm still in this green tunnel somewhere in those cloud mountains.

It used to be a road connecting Cochabamba with Chapare, going down hundred of meters. In the 60s, the road was abandoned and was slowly colonized by vegetation. Pieces of the road have been swallowed by streams, others have been covered by stones. The more you go down, slower you walk.

I'm probably not that far from the end but I have no idea how long it's gonna take me to do it and I have only 2 days of food left. I don't want to rot there, want to see my friends again, situation is becoming too dangerous. I make the decision to go back, it's not an easy one, will have to climb back this bloody mountain, 3 days again.

When morning comes, it is still raining, have to hurry up because food is running off. So I start walking, I have to go under trunks, over rocks covered by inextricable plants, cross ravines, go into the water. I've done it already so it might be okay but I can't make any mistake. If I get hurt I'm fucked. Nobody know I'm here, would take months to discover my skeleton.

I start thinking on Vietnam war. This exuberant vegetation, rain, mud, stressfull situation remind me that. But wait, why am I thinking on the US Vietnam war? Why not the french one? Probably because french didn't make good movies about it so I don't have the images on my subconscious. Probably one of the reasons antiamericanism is so widespread is because American are good movie makers. And also who know about Dutch crimes of war? Who know about what did this "peacefull" nation in East Indies? Who in Netherlands even know the name of Raymond Westerling?
I fall down in the water between two trunks. Have to stay focused on my way.

I'm quicker than on the way on because this time I just have to go back on the track I already made. After one day and half I cross the last ravine. Now I know I'm SAFE. Will be painfull but I'm sure I'll see again the ones I love. As I go up, there is less vegetation but it is still raining and I'm getting cold. Let start to sing stupid songs to go faster "Ho chi minh is a son..." No, another one!

I know I will soon reach a place where Bolivian workers are staying, close to network antennas. Will have to ask them some food, otherwise I would have to walk another day before eating anything. Yes they are there, digging holes close to their shelter. I go to see them and explain the situation. ¿Hay pa' comer? ("Is there anything to eat?") Yes, they say, ¿Pero no quieres descansar aca un rato? ("But don't you want to have a rest?") They are not especially friendly but have enough humanity to read my face and help without asking stupid questions.

The housekeaper gives me a plate of chicken soup with bread. As soon as I finish it comes another one. Food is so good, I'm going back to life. After that, I wait for dinner, trying to dry my poor clothes. Totally focused on food, nothing is more important for me. I'm anxiously listening to the guy cooking. Workers come back from outside, they are laughing, telling jokes probably about me in quechua. I'm so glad to see humans laughing, whatever they say. We eat fried chicken with rice, potatoes and chili sauce, typically Bolivian, drink tea and after a while go to sleep on the same big couch on the floor.

On the morning we drink api, a hot drink made of corn, sugar and cinnamon. I want to go, but the Bolivians convince me to wait for them. They are finishing setting up a lightning rod. Again, I wait for food, this time we'll eat boiled chicken with potatoes, lentils and rice. Wow! that's real worker food, perfect for me. After a while I am brought back to civilization on the back of their big pick-up, covered with a tarp. Under my plastic burka I'm smiling because I know I'll be able to tell this story.

Comments

amylin's picture

dear rené

this story was so gripping and strong. it took me a while to read it, and i read it more than once. so powerful and hurting. i had no idea what a writer you were (or are). i think you should let us into the inside world you have more.

valentina's picture

Thanks for sharing this

Thanks for sharing this story. Very visual,.... I could see you on that path and the face of the workers and the pot of boiling water.
I wanna ear more of your stories, and laughing under a plastic burka with you.

robino's picture

Not many stories are able to

Not many stories are able to take me by the throat like yours. From the first word to the last. And not only did you experience, so it seems, an amazing and almost life-taking adventure. You also managed to find the right format to bring us the story. I am thrilled.

I can see you so well on that truck, smiling. Can't wait to cook with you again. Miss you.

Robin.

Charlie's picture

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Price of life. Wow.
Damn Rene, you can really write. I could never come close to sounding that natural in French!
Thanks for sharing with us!!!

And personally, I'm interested to know if you're going to try again, what is that pain of going back like, and does it balance out with the food? Aaah food....

rene's picture

I would only try again with a

I would only try again with a machete.
Now I'm in a little tropical paradise called Chapare, I spend my time swimming and eating, yes eating all the time. I don't have so much pain not to have finished this trek, was so happy to get out of there.

Hey Charlie, you MUST go in Bolivia during your trip. Are you gonna head to Marroko now?